Follow my blog with Bloglovin Hello Joys.: 2014

Amour, Love

November 15, 2014



It is 2.12am past midnight now.
Saturday.
Week 9th.

Counting up to the 62nd day since my first arrival.
Counting down 63 days more to my first sem break.


May you live every day of your life.
― Jonathan Swift





Can't believe I've been through half of my first semester in uni.
Everything happened in my uni life seems to race in a blink of an eye.
It was a month ago when I last updated my blog.
In such a short period of time,
nevertheless,
    my perspective towards my future is changed entirely.



Different faces start entering into my life.
I was inspired and motivated.
I was loved and cherished.
We became friends, became buddies.
We laughed together, mocked each other 
and tapped one another shoulder's when he/she was tired.



I never thought of having them when I first arrived uni.
 I am blessed.
And I am thankful to God for adoring me so much.



To mention,
most of them are from AIESEC.
Despite being from different courses, different grades, 
different races and different backgrounds,
they are like a family to me.
    No other words than comfortable can better describe my feelings when I was with them.



However to be honest,
I found it awkward when I first joined this huge bunch of people.
But as time passes, 
we get to familiarize each other and the awkwardness faded away.
All this starts from the three days two night LLDS which I didn't plan to attend at first.
If someone asked me did I regret for my decision,
My answer is an absolute NO.
(Really a big thanks to Wendy, Ah Chow and Jerome for all those persuasion.) 



We all make choices, but in the end our choices make us.
― Ken Levine









People asked me why I love AIESEC so much.
That's because I feel like I was in high school again.


During my 6-years high school days,
I used to have a group of besties where we grew up together 
and been through numerous of ups and downs throughout our teens.
I have a bunch of boy-friends where we are as close as soulmates
and I can cry and act childish in front of them without worrying my image ruined.

They are always the first bunch of people I turned to when I was in trouble.


“If conversation was the lyrics, laughter was the music, 
   making time spent together a melody that could be replayed over and over without getting stale.”
― Nicholas Sparks





















Whenever I was back in JB,
 I wouldn't mind travel across the sea and visit their university and knock their doors late at night.
Although most of them were having exams next day,
they would still bring me out for supper and update me their recent life.







A few weeks ago,
on October 28 Tuesday,
it was my 19th birthday.


Initially, 
I thought I would be celebrating my birthday alone.
I was mentally prepared to just let the day pass will do.
But it turned up to be the most surprise and touching one throughout my life.


First, I didn't expect any of my course mates would notice my birthday.
We weren't that close at that time.
However when we had our afternoon class in TCR,
Lala eventually wished me Happy Birthday in our whatsapp group.
I was so shocked and touched when the others began to wish me birthday wishes too.
Kinza gave me a warm hug and a Subway cookie which I have been craving for ages,
while Nadiah, Syira and Tina gave me Kopiko sweets as my birthday present.
Michelle even suggested to sing me a Happy Birthday song in TCR right after class.
I rejected the idea as I weren't planning to let every students in TCR know that it was my birthday.
Haha.


When the night closed in,
my house mates invited me to watch choir performance at SA as Olivia was one of the performers.
We were walking passed our canteen
when I saw my Foon Yew's Notties were at one of the tables with a lighted Secret Recipe cake.
The cake itself explained why they were there at that time.
As told by Xiaoliang,
it was my Dad n Mum who bought the cake.
Once again, I was embraced with blessings.



Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You.
Dr. Seuss, Happy Birthday to You!








Besides this surprise birthday party,
I have received my first birthday card from my AIESEC's seniors.
They even got me a short video which they awkwardly sang Happy Birthday in the library. 
They might look funny but my tears were rolling when I watched the video.


10 o'clock at night, 
when I connected my Skype as planned a few days before my birthday
so that my besties could sing me a Happy Birthday song,
I was in shock again when I realised all my best boy-buddies were online too.
My girlfriends eventually planned a surprise birthday celebration through Skype
so that I can meet up with all my loved ones.

 
That was the moment when tears really coursed down my cheeks.
Shilei, Shiyau, Zhangpei, Yingyu, Tongyin, Linjie, Minhui,
Victor, Shengyuan, Shirong, Jiangyu, Yeejing,
Leetian, Zien, Zhengxian, Yilun, Eugene, Jiahao, Fuming, Youming, Jiasheng,
(Hopefully I didn't miss out anyone)
 Thankiew you guys for giving me such a big surprise!
I really love you guys to the moon and back!
*flying kisses from UNMC*





 

Through various social media,
 such as Facebook, Line, Whatsapp, Wechat and Oovoo,
 I have received lots and lots of birthday wishes too.

 (I would like to thank the stranger who posted on the Expression page and wished me Happy B'day.)
Thank you so much!


For the next few days after my birthday,
I was still receiving blessings from people all around the world.
From Japan, Australia, Taiwan, Singapore and England.

 
To add on,
my birthday was on the same day when Foon Yew's 2014 batch have their graduation ceremony. 
 Similar to what my fellow friends and I have been through last year,
 the juniors were having their Annual Graduation Dinner on that day too.


All these coincidences evoked my memories
and have made my birthday more meaningful as it should be.
I really didn't expect that much.
I didn't.



Count your age by friends, not years. Count your life by smiles, not tears.
― John Lennon



Looking back to all the love I had received, 
I felt a tug on my heartstrings.
   I love all of them,
and I know they love me too.








This life is yours.
Take the power to choose what you want to do and do it well.
Take the power to love what you want in life and love it honestly.
Take the power to walk in the forest and be a part of nature.
Take the power to control your own life.
No one else can do it for you.
Take the power to make your life happy.
― Susan Dolis Schutz






One day,
I will go out and explore the world.
I will travel to the every ends of the earth.
I will discover the inner beauty hidden behind every faces I met.
And find peace in all the things I touched.



I will take photographs of the smiling faces I saw in the supermarket.
And the little yellow flower which bloomed in my backyard that morning.
And the peaceful sky when it turns from dazzling blue to orange-red.


I will sit by the ocean,
 up on the hilltop,
and listen to the symphony of nature. 
Listen to the sound when the crystal blue waves crash against the rocks.
When the gentle breeze whips my hair backwards.  
 And when the birds are warbling and the crickets are chirping.



I will record down every beauty I see and I hear.
Feel them.
And love them.

Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever.
― Mahatma Gandhi 



"A photograph randomly taken somewhere in England."



I see calm and peace in this photo.
One day soon,
I will be one of the graduates from this beautiful place.
I would then be a grown-up.
Not physically,
but in knowledge and wisdom.


However,
there is still many unknowns.
No one can predict their future.
Neither me.
God has a plan for us.
 Hope but never expect.
Look forward but never wait.


“Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment
and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next.
Delicious Ambiguity.
― Gilda Radner
 
  






I love everyone who I've met and who I'm going to meet.
  Thank you for being part of my life and lead me to who I am now.
I will strive to be a better one.


Lastly,
I am proud to say,


I am an AIESECer.
I am an UNMCian.
 And I am a FOON YEW kid.




Amitié, Friendship

September 28, 2014



Another week has passed.
Again.
In a blink of an eye.


However,
“There are memories that time does not erase.”
― Cassandra Clare, City of Heavenly Fir





Emotionally I went through lots of ups and downs this week.
 
Cried twice.
One was when I heard my mum's voice through the phone after a stressful day having lectures.
Another was when I chat with my best buddy talking about how dreadfully I miss our old days. 


I have no idea why I cried.
The moment I heard their voice,
beads of tears just uncontrollably trickled down my cheeks.



“Memories warm you up from the inside. But they also tear you apart.”
― Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore 






Eventually, I had a chat with lots of my friends.
Zhangpei, Shilei, Shiyau, Tongyin, Jiangyu, Shengyuan, Shirong
and 
the Nott fellows.
Some of them were in China,
some in Singapore,
one in India,
and others were in the same school compound with me.
(A big thanks indeed to our high-technology.)



When we chat,
     we were laughing, giggling and chuckling almost till the end we hung up.
 
“When someone loves you, the way they talk about you is different. 
You feel safe and comfortable.”
― Jess C. Scott, The Intern 

Indeed.
 We wouldn't have to pay any attention for phony greetings.
The moment we spoke, 
we start to mock each other sarcastically.
Hahaha.



   But of course some our topics were sad and depressing,
  We tried our best consoling each other,
encouraging each other,
  and cheering up each other.
 
  Though we were far aparted,
    but knowing that all of us are going through the same obstacles together,
  everything seems bright again.



     “We are lonely, but we are not alone.” 





Overall,
My very first week at Nott seems negative.


“We are not broken, just bent.”



However, 
I did received lots of love since I came here.
And well,
some of my "first time" were dedicated to the moments I spent here too.
Haha.


Such as,
First time visiting the so-called biggest shopping center in kl - Mid Valley.
First time buying groceries with friends in Tesco.
First time cooking in our uni's kitchen.
First time finding simple meal cooked with love is the best.
First time swimming with my girlfriends.
First time chatting with all my dearests through Skype.
First time being so overjoyed to hear a voice that I really miss.
And
   First time realizing my life really can't leave out these familiar face and voice. 




“I would rather walk with a friend in the dark, than alone in the light.”
 ― Helen Keller






“In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life.
It goes on.” 
― Robert Frost







Yup, life goes on. :D




Le rêve, Dreams

September 20, 2014



 It has been the fifth day since I arrived at my next stop in life.
Time really flies.
Like an arrow.


“You may delay, but time will not.” ― Benjamin Franklin
 




This is a nice place.
A place where I am given freedom.
A place for me to learn how to survive from loneliness.
A place which empowers me to be strong.


A place where I am going to chase my dreams.




 
I want to read + travel + smile for the rest of my life.
My dream for a lifetime.


I want to be an environmental scientist dedicated to the great ocean.
My dream for the future.


I want to have a house on the beach, even just a little shack
somewhere so I can wake up, have coffee, 
look at dolphins,
 be quiet and breathe the air.

 My dream for eternal.



“I dream. Sometimes I think that's the only right thing to do.”
― Haruki Murakami, Sputnik Sweetheart





“If you never chase your dreams, you'll never catch them.”


I'm chasing them now.
One day, I'm going to catch them.

I promised.





It's 2.43am past midnight at the moment.

Goodnight world, 
I'm going to chase my dreams now.